It's (Very) Unfair.

It's (Very) Unfair.

You are a 26-year old man who still lives in his father's house with his father.

You are not yet working, but you want to write a Cisco CCNA exam that can enable you to work and make money. You want to prepare for the exam.

But you have two siblings, a 3-year old boy and a 6-year old girl. Their mother, who is also your mother, is dead. You love your siblings and sometimes play with them, but you also want time to do your own things.

They sleep late. They play and shout. One of them likes playing but not doing homework. When you try to discipline them(by saying no) and they cry, you hear :"I don't want anything or anybody to stress these children."

You go to bed late because they go to bed late. You feel tired. Reading your book feels like a herculean act. You feel weak. When you say you feel tired, you hear: "A young man should not be feeling tired." So you decide to keep quiet.

When you try to feed them, they reject food and may take up to an hour to finish the food because you have to keep following them with the food.

There is a female baby-sitter who stays in the house but the shared work is still a burden to you. Your health seems to be deteriorating. You have lost appetite for food in the past week. You want rest more than you want food. You feel frustrated because you are not studying as much as you wanted. 

You feel angry and crave for independence. But independence comes by having money and how will you have money if you don't pass the CCNA exam, and how will you pass the exam if you don't study?

When you ask for "personal time", you hear: "Every little minute that you sacrifice for other people is not wasted."